time to simplify, get rid of things, start anew. i've had this page since ninety-four. after awhile it reflected me no longer. i've even begun to doubt that pages can reflect people.

or maybe i've just begun to doubt that i have anything to write that reflects who i am because who i think i am is not who i am. this is a problem when one considers one's page one's diary.

i looked at myself as the cumulation of my activities and my interests. but as these changed, my list of used-tos grew lengthy. maybe i am an easily-polarizable diffuse function, and maybe the individual polarizations don't matter.

or maybe i've lost the sense of purpose i once had for this page.¹

or maybe i've begun to doubt that words or text can reflect purpose at all.

so. i've decided to erase everything. get rid of old links. reorganize. simplify.²

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2. i'm thinking i should do this with all my earthly possessions as well. so if you're in the deecee area and you want lots of books, or bookshelves, or, well, stuff, let me know. though (see supra *) i will probably not answer your email.